Hello Stijn, thank you for writing. I am sorry to hear you have suffered in this way — for sure it manifests a lifetime’s worth of inward muddle for ourselves but I am thankful to hear that you have embarked on your recovery journey. When we unpack the mechanisms that we adopted as young children, we can finally come to understand a lot about ourselves and others don’t you find? It is truly inspiring introspective work, and in doing it we slowly heal — I too am in the process of doing so. I wish you peace and happiness. All the best, Amelie