Hello Ezra, I’m pleased for you that you can identify with this piece as it’s now your opportunity to start healing 😊
Having too been brought up in this environment I suffered for a long time with the effects of complex trauma. I think it’s very difficult to heal on your own – I would strongly urge you to seek the support of a counsellor or therapist if you can? They will help you work through your childhood and all the wounds that it left within you, and once you start to confront them you will slowly begin to heal.
I wish you peace and happiness. Good luck and take good care Ezra 🙏🏻