Dear Shannon, you have MUCH to be proud of, and nothing to be ashamed of.
Your beauty shines through your current strife, your love for your daughter; your desire and determination to overcome. Go easy on yourself — depression is a heavy weight that crushes even the most fierce will and muster. It is nonsensical to the rational mind when we are knee deep in it but you will come out the other side and when you do you can tackle that clutter and eat lettuce leaves if that’s what you want to do. But in the meantime give yourself a cuddle, you deserve it so much. All the best, take care.